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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

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New Jersey Drive
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life`s so confusing, sometimes i wanna just give up.

sometimes i think "maybe it`s not the world around me thats fucked up, everyone else seems to enjoy it, maybe it`s just me thats fucked up."

but it doesn`t matter anyway.

    he holds me down.

  && that`s why i love him so.

       he keeps me sane..<3


Tuesday, November 15, 2005

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? on my chest, a cat maybe.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? some pictures, stars, writing, paint?

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?well its silver and blue and has a screen? 

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO? rock, emo, ska, rap, r&b, a lot.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? idk.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? to be at home, smokin a blunt, with my boo. =]=]

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? kwame.<3 the past year. memories.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? kwame..uhh. whatever he gave me

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? cucumber melon, vanilla.cologne.


10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? sometimes

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? hell yes.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? ....

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME? uhh. stuff the smells gooood.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE PREFERRED SEX? whatever the fuck looks good?

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING AT? why do i have to propose.? 

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS? energy drinks

17. YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? cheese.

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? fucking anything im starving.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? kawme

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? no.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?  i dont fuckin remember.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? how does that make sense?

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?  saying i love you.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED?  6

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?  both?

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? kwame. everyday.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? when kawme makes me mad and when i know im right and someone says im worng!

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE U.S?  mm, yes

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? idk

36. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? somerset, nj. 

37. FIRST JOB? obriens bar.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?  of course

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY? school work.

40.IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE? im fine with myself.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY? cuz im bored.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? everything =]

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL? drink in front of cops and laugh. but alcohol is yuckky.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? a pound of bud.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? 2?

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? my middle name.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? sometimes.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?my middle

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?  yesterday

5O. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? yes

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? uhh. idk

52. ANY BAD HABITS? smoking. fucking up.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF? simple plan. lmao.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? hell yeah im awesome.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? yeah

56. DO LOOKS MATTER? not really. but i mean theres a point.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? scream. punch kick.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? i dont have one anymore.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY? NO

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? this dog thing from the fox and the hound.

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? idk.a lot.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM? of course.

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? no

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? a fun person that cares. i got him <3

67.WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?  toast, kiddo, idk.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? no

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? strawberry, oreo cookie, min chocolate chip. a few more.

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS? black, red, pink, green

73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?  wtf?

74. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?  kwame.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? whatever floats your boat.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? the libririan blab on to someone

77. LAST THING YOU ATE? hard bread, last night. lmao.

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? kwame.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE PREFERRED SEX? looks. butt.

82. FAVORITE DRINK? STRAWBERRY SODA<3

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT? sports...eh.

85. HAIR COLOR? blondish?

86. EYE COLOR? light brown

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES? i should but my friend has em.

88. SIBLINGS? 2 brothers

89. FAVORITE MONTH? march. december.

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI? idk

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED? hmm. spongebob

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? a few

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? yeah

94. SUMMER OR WINTER? both

95. KISSES OR HUGS? both

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? RELATIONSHIPS

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? idk

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? idfk

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? i dont read books

100. WHERE DO YOU WORK? i dont work

 


So, schools alright, i was failing at first cuz i skipped like 3 weeks of my english class and then i was absent and then i got suspended for beating this stupid bitch down.! sike. but yeah i did get into a fight and got suspended for almost two weeks. i havent been downtown, fuck it. kwame<3`s wonderful, but im just worried about him getting locked up, but i have faith that he wont. i brought my grades up in school and i get my shop soon. i was mad worried bout my mom, but she let me know everythings alright. i get to finally move outta m small ass apartment into a much bigger & nicer one without bohdan. =]       i kinda don`t wanna leave my room tho cuz so much has just went on there. its filled with history. but i can never forget the memories they will always remain. my brother is doing fine and my dad is fuckin awesome. so i guess everythings good. christmas is pretty soon but the summer is oh so far. i miss everything tho. this time last year i haden`t even known half of the people i know now. i miss running crazy downtown, on the streets, not giving a fuck, i miss it. i miss my old peoples they were fucking awesome. i miss dxm and bacardi days. i miss staying up and out all night. i miss it all. thats just the way it is tho. things can never be the same. but it`s okay because im happy with what i do now. even tho i just si in my house smoking blunts all day and night with my boyfriend, its the best times because i dont have to really worry bout shady ass mother fuckers and drama and cops. im safe at home. so last year was oh so wonderful, but it will never go back. but no matter how much i change or the world changes, i`ll always have my memories. <33

 

 

       That`s just the way it is..

Things will never be the same

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Friday, October 28, 2005

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By Tyrin Turner, Larenz Tate
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¢¾ well i got a new phone, me and my baby are doing good. people still suck, and there still ain`t shit to do. well, my computer still fuckin blows. but whatever. well. im in school and its last period so i mma go.

 


Friday, October 07, 2005

hey all.

well shit has been crazy. my computer crashed, my phone got broken again. jess hates me because she didnt take the time to listen to me, momma passed, me nd jae, were good, same shit different day lol. we still fight, but that just means we were meant to be together i guess.  i mean i could take a little less fighting but i guess its all good. everyone thins im so different, but im really not. im growing the fuck up, i might change my style here and there but inside im the same person. *sigh* i do miss last year like crazy tho. uhg, and im gonna have to put up with rich`s shit again. but i definetly will not fall into his shit this time, im too crazy in love with this boy to do that to him again. once was enough, i shouldnt have even done it once. but yea, im being taken care of tho. but my home life, is just lie woah. my mom is sick, she won`t tell me what`s wrong with her or anything but i know its not good. she`s on so many meds, its fuckin killing me. bohdan, i really dislike him most of the time and i hold him responsible for all of this. i dont want him living with me anymore, i cant stand walking outta the shower or my room and seeing him. uhg. shits so crazy. life is so crazy, everyone i once chilled with has either fucked me over some how or just we stopped chilling. this world is so fucking crazy life is so fucking crazy. its like everything just goes around in a circle every year. people change, things change, i change. i hate people. all they do is fuck me over. im so nice to people. and everyone just has to bullshit or lie or some kinda thing like that. man i miss everything. im so sick of life. i wish it would just go the way i want it to or just end in a non painful way. but hey what can i do about that. shits too crazy. well. hopefully i fix my computer soon. i`ll be back. my phone will be back im sorry to you all....♥♥

R.I.P. Cheryl Hall.♥♥

             a.k.a.

          Momma<3



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